There are things I have never said in public. But I will.
For one thing, I don’t “identify as” a gender or an anti-gender or any of the dozens of designations people come up with. Gender is a social construct that I have hated and pushed against my whole life. Materialist analysis helps us understand gender much more clearly.
I am female. I used to think I identified as male because of some innate quality I was born with. Now I realize I was identifying with my abusers to try and evade the hell they had me in. Kind of a Stockholm syndrome.
I don’t identify as “cisgender.” I am female, although I still struggle with feeling like I’m in the “wrong” body. I struggle with feeling like I look freakish, like someone who got neutered or who quit halfway through transitioning.
I don’t identify with patriarchy. I’m no man’s girlfriend or mother or wife. I’m everywoman’s sister.